Flying through life on twisted clouds!

Alright, you maybe wondering about the post from yesterday. Well, something happened and I'm not sure how to explain it. The circus girl appeared again. She began teasing me about how much of a worthless crap I am and that I killed innocent foxes and stuff. She made me feel really guilty and I was getting sick of it. So I tried cutting her with my sword which proved futile.

Then the entire environment changed and me and Vanya were standing on a tiny string. I couldn't see to the ground we were that high up and while I was shocked I tried to remain calm and keep balance.

Vanya was standing there, looking rather frightened as well but remaining on the string.

The circus girl flew up to us and laughed.

"Well now Céline, since you are unwilling to cooperate I'm gonna give you an ultimatum"

"What?"

"Well, it should be obvious. I'm gonna ask you to use your sword to strike down Vanya here"

"WHAT, NO" Vanya cried out.

"I'm not gonna do that"

"Why not?" The Reverie asked.

"I...I..." I stuttered "I love her"

Vanya looked at me with puppy dog eyes. This was the first time I had said that to her. Tears began flowing down her face.

"I love you too" she said and began walking to me. Which was a dangerous thing to do in this situation. Then all the sudden I could feel myself starting to move my body. Not on my own, but Reverie was obviously controlling me...or at least I think so.

I took out my sword and with one motion

cut

her

in

half

Q_Q

She fell down into the endless void below me, her parts flying next to each other until I could no longer see them.

"That was a cruel thing you did" The Reverie said, messing with my head again.

I had enough of this.
I jumped down.

Of course, given that I'm writing this blogpost I of course am alive if you can even call it that. But how I am is not a tale to be told today, not here. This blog is not right for it, its called Sweet Vapor. There's nothing sweet about life anymore and I think it won't be for a while now.

This is just the beginning.
Might as well be dead.

~Céline De Vos

Freaking out

OMG THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING, OH GOD!
OH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GODOH GOD OH GOD

Some moments of peace

It has been peaceful and actually today is the first day that things have appeared real again. Considering what Vanya told me, I became worried. When I woke up she was sleeping next to me soundly, as we had gone out on another date the day prior.

I'm thinking of getting her something nice for valentine's day, something that shows her how much she means to me, because I'm really starting to fall for her.

Her favorite anime is Yu-Gi-Oh and her favorite monster card is The Dark Magician Girl, so I'm thinking of getting her this.

 

 Yes, it can be seen as a bit of a perverted gift. But she talked to me the other day about how much she wanted this figurine in her collection because she has a collection of Dark Magician Girl figurines and is missing this one.

I'm gonna go order it now.
I hope she'll like it (◕‿◕✿)

A date

It has been a while since the medival anime setting kicked in, so existence has become much more tolerable. I decided to go on another date with Vanya. Me seeing everything in a different style wasn't really a hindrance. We went to the park, since I figured that it be nice to have picnic together.

But eventually something slipped off my tongue.

"You look cute as an anime character" I said.

"Huh?"

After a while of trying to make up excuses, I figured the best course of action would be to come clean. I told her everything that had happened lately.

Afterwards I expected her to run off or call me crazy, but she didn't. She looked down, with a sad look on her face and said: "So she got to you too?"

She explained that the circus lady was the source of this and its effect is different on each person, although she wouldn't tell me what the circus lady was letting her see.

"It's called The Reverie, its a fear"

"Fear?"

"Yes, basically eldritch abominations that personify our fears"

"How do you know that?"

"One of the fears, a different one told me it...EAT"

I was gonna question what EAT was, but I figured I could save that for another time. She suddenly burst into tears, clenching her fists on her white thigh highs that I didn't notice until now.

"I don't want to die" she exclaimed.

She then proceeded to hug me. I hugged her back and stroked her pretty black hair in order to try to comfort her.

"You won't die. I'll make sure of it, I promise" I said.

At least I'm no longer alone in this.